Current struggle
So, it’s been awhile since I’ve written about anything other than running. I’ve still been studying and spending time with God every day, but with all the writing I’ve been doing about running and my training, I’ve been dealing with a little journaling burnout. However, I came across these verses last week and they’ve really gripped my attention.
“But make sure that you don’t get so absorbed and exhausted in taking care of all your day-to-day obligations that you lose track of the time and doze off, oblivious to God. The night is about over, dawn is about to break. Be up and awake to what God is doing! God is putting the finishing touches on the salvation work he began when we first believed. We can’t afford to waste a minute, must not squander these precious daylight hours in frivolity and indulgence, in sleeping around and dissipation, in bickering and grabbing everything in sight. Get out of bed and get dressed! Don’t loiter and linger, waiting until the very last minute. Dress yourselves in Christ, and be up and about!” -Romans 13:11-14 (The Message Remix)
So, how does one go about doing this? How does one effectively find this balance? The past few days I’ve felt like I need nothing more than to spend some uninterrupted time with God, meaning many hours. But where do I carve out that time? Do I do this in the middle of the night and lose sleep? How do I fight off the tiredness the following day and be a good husband, father, and employee? How do I take that time away from my family? Work?
I totally feel exhausted from taking care of my day-to-day responsibilities right now. However, how can I remove myself from there for a small amount of time when so much needs to be done, and so many rely on the work we perform here? How do I in good conscience do that? I know all of the arguments regarding taking care of yourself so that you can be a blessing to others. It’s just a lot easier said than done.
I’m sure I’ll figure it out. I’m sure God will help. I know that His grace is sufficient for me. I know that in my head, but sometimes doubt it in my heart. The biggest struggle sometimes is simply connecting the two!